'tis written in your fate, she said A difficult life ahead Well this is it then The train has stopped right here. People change live with it, he said There is no one I recognise anymore Me and You, we're all history What is and what is meant to be. Am weak, I falter. I wont talk to you if you do, he said So I hide from all of you I hide. And if I end it today You will sayI didn't want to know her at all.
January 8, 2010
January 7, 2010
The alcove on the by-lane The place set out for two I wonder who sat there everyday were they lovers like us? Or just some lonely guard Sitting there to keep us away. The passing headlights light up your face And I realise how far from reality it seems Like a line out of the absurd dreams "To walk with you endlessly". Didn't take much to get away But they way back seems so much longer More tedious, scary and sad I look up at your face And wonder if you can read mine, If you can see the glow Not of the peach that lights the sky. The barren hedges that don't hide us enough The "Caution: Dead Slow" sign The industrial lights like stars right there The stars above lurking behind the peach pink sky The shooting star you saw and wished on The kiss you gave that no one saw The wall right behind us I wonder what it guards Would they interrupt us sitting here? Peacefully dreaming. I stare at you You, staring at the sky You, looking out for passing cars That might be watching us They'd think its a dream Not unlike us. You, spotting those three men walking towards us You, looking down at me With a look I can't quite comprehend The 19 kisses, something on your mind. But am not to know I guess Each kiss pushes me deeper into the dream Healing the broken ones suddenly. I lie there, just looking At those pretty lights, daring To show me a place more beautiful, peaceful A sound sweeter Than your heart beating right here Anything to move me from here, anything. Anything except that stupid buffalo And look it gives us The way it almost attacks The way you hold me And whisper "Stay still" Like you could hide the fear in your voice for me. The chocolate I'd saved for my birthday Which happened to be in my bag The bed sheet I carried Wasn't exactly my plan The coke that was to be our wine The hunger and thirst that never came It wasn't perfect, my plan. You finally found the Orion last night And I found a part of me I'd long ago lost A part of me that believes The pain to comeIs worth every second of this.
January 1, 2010
Ok, this might suck. But its a start. I had to put something up.
The pen lies there
Untouched for so long
It calls out to me
Begs me.
So busy with the rythm I set for myself
So busy trying to find a channel out
For the screaming voices inside me
so busy, to overlook the only thing
thast alwasy been around, waiting.
So i pick up that pen
and start a new Verse.
Only to realise Ive become so much worse
In so many ways.
The only thing Ive been trying to drive away
Is the only one thats stuck with me all through
So I guess its the two of us, writing again
My loneliness and me.
January 1, 2010
Because time has finally healed me
Because now I realize
Now I realize what went wrong
Why, I don’t care.
Because now I finally miss you
Miss you.
Because now I realise
That maybe I do need you
And your stupid ego back in my life
Because now I realize
That we were never meant to be
Anything more than good friends
Because thats the only thing I miss about you
Because thats the only thing we lacked eventually
And because its the only thing you never missed
I can never have you back.
June 2, 2009
The words come as fast as they go away.
The moment passes on
and all I can do is stare at you.
Stare and stare.
Its a strange feeling
That changes so much
so quickly.
Its been there for so long now
I wonder why i didn’t see it coming
The perseverence I lack,
the dedication.
I find in you.
The inability to express
The way I still hold back from you.
The way the fear doesn’t go away
How it makes me the way I am
Vulnerable to you.
And yet not. In so many ways.
May 30, 2009
What does it take to realise
that your sorrow is not enough for the world.
Its not worth the attention you grant it.
The attention you seek
is not something you deserve.
The pain you think it will drive away
is never going to go.
The selfless-ness you think you show
is your virtue and yours alone.
The world is selfish and shall remain that way.
It is too much to ask
for the world to change.
If you want to delve in so deep
do so at your own expense
The pain that will follow
when you hit cold water face first
Is yours, and yours alone.
The misery of thought and loneliness
is meant to be this way.
Its not going to go away.
May 27, 2009
Lets run away today
Away from this place we are to call our home
Lets run away where no one can see
No one can talk
Lets run away to the water
And the expanse of white sand
Lets hide behind the trees
And stare at the sunrise.
lets count the stars
And watch the orange pink turn black.
Let our laughter echo
Silence only when we kiss.
Let me lie on you and stare at the sky.
Let me sit up and stare at you.
Endlessly.forever.
Whisper and promise me we re never going back.
Build me my world. right there.
Lets run away today.
December 11, 2008
The closed walls,
The barred windows
Standing in the shadows
Of the little light streaming through
Streaming through the dirt, the grime
Thats settled for so long.
Attempts to shake it, Futile.
We, screaming for revival
Tugging at the bars
Amazed, gaping
At the ignorance that surrounds us.
The acceptance without a voice
The satisfaction of a dreary life
We, screaming
Trying to wake them up
Can’t nobody see?
The truth? The light?
The chains, the walls, the bars
The games
The subtle games of society.
Society, That makes us, creates us.
Breaks us, extinguishes the spark within
All escapes destroyed
Stand in front of them
Die a valiant death
But death it is
Death of the million voices
That chose to speak
That chose to realize
The games
The subtle games of society
At the price of our life.
Black is white, and white becomes black
At the beck and call of these
Right or wrong
Is not what we believe
It is the way they decide.
Taught since the first days
To accept
Raise a voice and face regret
Un belong, and pay the price
Uniformity, their key, they rule.
Thoughts damped
Eyes closed
The earlier they begin
The easier it looks
One in a million?
Lost in the billions
And those voices give up
Stand in the crowd, lost, hopeless.
The fear grips
And before they know it
They’re one of them.
They die a valiant death.
