Its been some time now.

 

Adele

Sometimes it lasts in Love,

Sometimes it hurts instead.

 

What can I say.

Because when I look for inspiration.

Because when I miss my beer.

Because all sad things are beautiful.

Some conversations can never be replaced.

 

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I painted my shoes.

 

Attempt at a song.

If I wrote you a letter everyday
Would you read it.
Would it scare you.
Would it drive you away.

If I cry when you leave
Will it stop you.
And if I wanted you back
Will it change anything.

When I see you again
Will you smile at me.
Remember me.
Kiss me.

If I miss you everyday
Will you think of me.
And if I knocked at your door one day
Will you open it for me.

Because baby when you leave
I know you won’t come back for me.
Because I’ll wait for you
and dream of you
and smile when I think of you
…but that won’t change a thing.

 

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I dreamt I fell off those rocks

and the sea enveloped me

I dreamt I drifted into nothingness

for eternity.

And it was so beautiful

more than I imagined it would be.

And in my dream

I smiled.

 

With words, with music.

The look across the room
Of acknowledgement. Of realization.
I try to muster a smile
But you’ve already said goodbye.
One of so many,
Then why did I cry.

I try to get angry, but I can’t.
I try not to think of how it ‘came this way.
I don’t think of the smiles. The endless drinks.
The songs and the waves.
And so it ends like it began.
With words,
With music.

 

Something new.

 

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I can feel the eyes on me
ripping me apart, gently.
I can hear the voices in my head
telling me stories about what you said.
I can feel the void filling me inside
and I fight to fill it, with everything I possibly can.
I turn away, and there it is again
It sneaks up on me, drowning me everytime.

I can’t hear my heartbeat.
I don’t want to anymore.
All I can hear is yours
and I cling onto it
till it drowns out everything else.
I let it take over me, for now.
Because of course, its ephemeral, is it not?